Putting trust in humans is like building a house using paper bricks. It's bound to get blown down, spontaneously combust in flames, washed away or trampled on by Big Fish. And we know this, but we do it anyway!
It's a proven fact, well known even, people suck. But I continue to place unabiding faith in a persons ability to change for the better. Then I ask myself why? Why do they keep crawling back? Why bother if the reason for departing is the very reason my back is turning once more. Travelling down this beaten path has led me to think that maybe it's me, maybe I suck. Maybe the way to get people to treat you good is to treat them bad, then watch them crawl back to you like a cockroach with no legs. Watch them flail under a rushing waterfall.
No one likes the nice Little Fish. That's no way to get anywhere in life! But, but! My lower lips trembles, my feet aren't big like theirs. I can't trample on anything! My whisper light footsteps barely leave a carbon footprint. My fragile heart so open to shattering at any given stage. How could I lend it to such mistreatment again? how could this Little Fish ever think that they'd ever be accepted in a world crawling with people like her.
Angry Little Fish turns blue with rage. I stamp up and down but don't even leave a mark. "Why can't I trample their hearts like they trampled mine" I seethe! My little body shakes with anger, falling to the ground frozen in fit. It's happening again, she's crushed my spirit. Arghhhh! Piercing screams. Screams pierce my ears like perfectly sharpened darts.
They are coming now. This is it. This is the end. The ground rumbles like an empty belly beneath me and my frozen body is awoken from its slumber. With one mighty push they begin their charge. Once the dust settles my battered body is revealed. Perhaps no different than before. They've done it again. Gone and trampled on my heart like it's the dirt they walk on. I should've known. I should've seen it coming. But not this time. And certainly not the next.
If nothing else, trampled hearts lead to heartfelt blogs.
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